Reflection

This is a work in progress:


Sorrow presses down on me
It is through altered eyes I see
the glaring flaws of a blurred distorted world
Lost and disjointed I wander around
Not quite awake but not quite sleeping
Jealousy has poisened me and I am barely breathing
Looking for what is lost but I can't remember what that was
Slowly fading into the madness of the present
forgetting the vibrance of who I was during my descent
becoming used to being ignored, an afterthought
Willing myself to dissapear
to see myself reduced to nothing
Nothing would be better than this half hearted existance
Tears escape from me like refugees carrying the weight of my distress
I gather the growing darkness, pulling it like a cloak around me
To protect me from the being blinded by the glare of harsh reality
I shudder and feel I am shrinking growing smaller day by day
until I am small enough, to fall through the cracks.
I just can't stop thinking
This plague of doubt won't go away
My mind is a whirl with a flurry of worries swarming like bees
They feed on the residue left by my lost love's honey
The sweetness gone rotton left to swelter in the heat of angry words
I walk alone in this wonderland of grief where my screams are not heard
covered by cuts from double edged swords
weilded by people who don't give a damn
I am tired and wasted from too much caring
Nothing left to offer I have already given everything
Still I move on, too scared of what will happen if i stop and look back
and catch my reflection in a pool in a puddle
Freezing in horror when faced with the image of what i have become.

If I was famous how I might look?

My Friend Mervyn did these for me. Pretty cool huh?

This is why I don't run....

This article was on msn this morning and I think it is a great reason not to run. I know some people love to run but I hate it. Even jogging is pushing it. I am not lazy, mind you. I love to walk and hike but running is just not my cup of tea.

Man dies after finishing Toronto MarathonLast Updated Mon, 17 Oct 2005 14:28:57 EDT
CBC Sports

A man died after crossing the finish line at the Toronto Marathon on Sunday morning. After receiving cheers following the completion of the 21-kilometre half-marathon around 11:15 a.m., the man, who appeared around 40, walked a few metres and then sat on the curb. He then collapsed in the arms of medical personnel.

Marathon officials at the scene tried to revive the runner but were unsuccessful. He was transported to hospital with no vital signs.

Witnesses told 680 News radio station in Toronto that it took 15 minutes for an ambulance to arrive due to road closures. The man's name has not been released.

Marathon legend Bill Rodgers, who fired the starting pistol for the 10,000 runners, was distraught as he witnessed the man being taken away by emergency officials. "It was so sad, I wish I could have done something," said Rodgers, 56, a four-time winner of both the Boston and New York marathons.

It's the third death in five years at the Toronto Marathon. Another man died during last year's race and there was another death in 2001.

with files from Canadian Press

Kissing teacher gets nailed

Why would you want to kiss this? What kid would find this attractive? My Grandma is hotter than this lady..... ugh....This story is so gross it makes me shudder. Poor boy he must be traumatized. Here is the article from the Toronto Sun today:

Tue, October 18, 2005
Kissing teacher gets nailed
College: She's guilty of professional misconduct for pursuing student
By BRODIE FENLON, TORONTO SUN




A former Hamilton high school teacher was found guilty of professional misconduct yesterday for kissing her Grade 10 student, asking him to make love to her and showering him with gifts, e-mails, phone calls and visits to his home.

A disciplinary panel at the Ontario College of Teachers ruled that Errine Renata Acciaroli, also known as Shlomit Acciaroli, 59, sexually abused the student and that she "was unfit to carry out her professional duties" as a teacher.

A penalty will be announced at a later date which could include the loss of her teaching certificate. Acciaroli, who now runs a Hamilton bed-and-breakfast, did not defend herself at the hearing or send legal representation. But when contacted by The Sun late yesterday after the ruling, Acciaroli denied she had ever abused the student. She said the student, who can't be named under a publication ban, was depressed and made the allegations out of spite and misinterpreted an innocent kiss.

"It's absolutely false ... It's a bunch of lies."
Hamilton police investigated the student's claims and no charges were laid, said Acciaroli, who was fired in January 2004.

In the 2000-2001 year, Acciaroli was a learning resource teacher at Westmount Secondary School. The student was then 17 years old and in need of remedial help. He was living by himself. The student testified yesterday that at the end of 2000, he was invited to Acciaroli's home for a sleepover on a Friday so he could learn more about her Jewish faith. He testified that after a traditional Jewish Shabbat dinner, he "froze" when Acciaroli kissed him on the mouth for "half a minute to 45 seconds."

"At one point, she said, 'You're not saying yes, but you're not saying no either,' " he testified. "She asked if I wanted to make love to her. I said no. She asked if I just wanted to lie with her. I said no." The student testified that he was so shaken he fled.

Acciaroli admitted "she may have crossed the line" by inviting him into her home. She claimed the kiss was a "Shabbat kiss" similar to one she gave her rabbi. She denied asking the teen to have sex. The College heard that Acciaroli made repeated attempts to call or visit him.
In a March 2001 e-mail read into evidence, he pleaded with her to stop her phone calls and "unscheduled visits," noting he was depressed and prone to fits of "uncontrollable weeping."
But the messages continued -- even after the student and his parents complained and a school board investigation was launched.

In an online conversation in April 2001, Acciaroli wrote, "Yes, I loved you and in spite of what you've done, I still love you." She noted that desire "happens between men and women; there are attractions," and that she had felt temptation.

Original Names of Now Famous People

Demi Moore = Demetria Guynes
Meg Ryan = Margaret Hyra
Susan Sarandon = Susan Tomaling
Sting = Gordon Summer
Shania Twain = Eileen Twain
Eddie Money = Eddie Mahoney
Seal = Sealhenry Samuel
Sinbad = David Adkins
Christian Slater = Christian Hawkins
Diane Keaton = Diane Hall
Micheal Keaton = Micheal Douglas
Wynona Ryder = Wynona Horrowitz
Nicolas Cage = Nicolas Coppola
Ulysses S. Grant = Hiram Ulysses Grant (H.U.G.)
Elizabeth Arden = Florence Nightengale Graham
Martin Sheen = Ramon Estevez
Erykah Badu = Erica Wright
Jennifer Aniston = Jennifer Anistonopoulos

The way they Were

Angelina Jolie - Has a tattoo on her left forearm of a quote from Tenessee Williams: "A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages".

Her other tattoos include the Japanese sign for death, 2 American Indian symbols, a dragon and a Large cross.

Angelina married actor Jonny Lee Miller wearing a unique bridal gown: Black leather pants and a white shirt, on which she wrote her husband's name in her own blood.

When Angelina married actor Billy Bob Thorton, they each wore vials of the other's blood.

Angelina explains the wilder side of her nature by saying "You're young, you're drunk, you're in bed, you have knives; shit happens."


Brad Pitt's - first acting job was playing a chicken, He wore a chicken suit to attract customers to El Pollo Loco restaurant.

In Memory of Alicia Ross

We remembered her
As the rain poured down outside
and the tears poured from our eyes
Mourning the Bright Star,
The Sunshine smile that once shone warming our hearts
Now ripped from this existence
Her soul is in a better place
Her memory lives on with us
We remember her zest for life and smiling face
Taken too soon
She will not be forgotton
Brilliant flame you burn no more in this world
But we will not let your light die in our hearts
Your vibrant legacy will not be forgotton
You were an angel amongst us
Now you walk amongst the angels
Bless you Alicia
Let us not forget

Spiders Ugh Gross

Hello friends,

I don't have much to report because my life is pretty boring....But there is something....In the past 2 weeks I have killed about 20 spiders in my room and bathroom. I killed 6 in one day. A while ago a spider's nest hatched in my bathroom and I was drying my hair and looked up to notice hundreds of tiny tiny spiders all over the room. I freaked out and went about with the minivac and vaccuumed them up. Unfortunately I think some escaped and now they are grown up and roaming about my room. I don't know where they are coming from but it is an inordinate amount of spiders for 2 weeks. I thought the cats would kill them but they can't if they are on the ceiling....

Anyways sleeping has been difficult as I am terrified of spiders and I suspect that I have been bitten already while sleeping. I don't know what else to do except keep killing them as soon as I find them and hope they are not breeding somewhere.

Well that's it friends....back to my boring job and boring life.....:-D